9.30.2009

blood on my hands

..IT'S 5 O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING



..EACH DAY GETS MORE AND MORE LIKE THE LAST DAY



..SHE VOYAGES IN CIRCLES, BUT SHE STILL FEELS ALONE



..SO SHE TAKES HER LIFE



..AND SUDDENLY EVERYTHING EXPLODE INTO black



9.29.2009

me vs the world.

halhal yang gw syukuri hari ini..
  1. ga telat absen! padahal uda bangun dengan rasa malas teramat tinggi. soalnya uda nyoba absen ke jagorawi yang lebih deket dari kosan gw. jagorawi: 07.58, pusat: 08.05. hoahahaha menang!
  2. makan siang gratis! thx bgt buat bos gw yang uda baik bgt nraktir makan. sekalian jalanjalan tentunya. :D
  3. sleepy to the max! eits tapi internet di meja gw uda jalan dan lagi lancarlancarnya. jadi fesbuk dan ym sukses!
  4. dapet pinjeman reader's digest dari temen seruangan, dan isinya lagi bagus bgt. biasanya bacanya sekilas, ini ampe ga sadar uda gw baca dari awal ampe akhir.
  5. kerjaan gw beres! akhirnya. dan mendapatkan pengetahuan baru tentang kerjaan gw.
  6. terlibat percakapan yang menyenangkan dengan temanteman satu ruangan dan satu kantor. :)
  7. pulang ke kosan dan ketemu lagi sama kamar yang berantakan. tapi malem ini uda terlihat lebih manusiawi.
  8. fesbuk setengah mampus dibuka. akhirnya karoke sendiri di kamar. song lists: blurry-puddle of mudd, up against the wall-boys like girls, caught up the angels-the used, take it away-the used, all the small things-blink182, miles apart-yellowcard, dig-incubus. old songs but i can't stop to love 'em!
  9. mau dengerin the used sampe gw ketiduran dan ketemu sama pagi lagi. i dont even care with this loneliness.

blurryPuddleofmudd

Everything’s so blurry, and everyone’s so fakeAnd everybody’s empty, and everything is so messed upPreoccupied without you, I cannot live at allMy whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawlyou could be my someone you could be my sceneYou know that I’ll protect you from all of the obsceneI wonder what you’re doing Imagine where you areThere’s oceans in between us, and that’s not very farCan you take it all awayCan you take it all awayWhen you shoved it in my face,This pain you gave to meCan you take it all awayCan you take it all awayWhen you shoved it in my faceEveryone is changing, there’s no one left that’s realSo make up your own ending, and let me know just how you feelCause I am lost without you, I cannot live at allmy whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawlyou could be my someone you could be my sceneYou know that I will save you from all of the uncleanI wonder what you’re doin I wonder where you areThere’s oceans in between us but that’s not very farCan you take it all awayCan you take it all awayWhen you shoved it in my face,This pain you gave to meCan you take it all awayCan you take it all awayWhen you shoved it in my face,This pain you gave to meOh nobody told me what you thought,Nobody told me what to sayEveryone showed you where to turn,Told you when to run awayNobody told you where to hide,Nobody told you what to sayeveryone showed you where to turn,Showed you when to run awayCan you take it all awayCan you take it all awayWhen you shoved it in my face,This pain you gave to meCan you take it all awayCan you take it all awayWhen you shoved it in my face,This pain you gave to me

9.28.2009

why don't you just kill me?

(coretan hasil ga ada kerjaan..eeeh tapi ini bukan curhatan looh.. *takutnya ada yg marah..hwhwhw..*)

dear rainbow,
why do you give me this bad ending?


dia datang ketika aku menghilang,
dan dia pergi ketika aku mencari.


singkat waktu yg dia berikan untuk kukejar,
sesingkat indah sinar bulan yg kuhabiskan bersamanya.
sesingkat lembut embun pagi yg membawakan senyumku kepadanya.
sesingkat cahaya yg menggariskan takdirku dan takdirnya.


i hate you when you call my name.
i hate you when you look at me like that.
i hate you when you smile at me.
i hate you since the day i love you.

shit.

9.22.2009

petuah dari temen gw.

Stop dengerin dugem

Beralihlah ke Nasyid

Stop
baca stensilan

Beralihlah ke Al-Quran

Stop senam2 ga penting

Beralihlah ke sholat

-anak pengajian kalimat kalih- *LOL*



*aseeeek...gw suka gaya lo..hahaha*

9.21.2009

need time to rest.

gilaaakkk
uda setengah taun ini gw tidur di atas jam 10..
uda sebulan ini gw tidur di atas jam 11..
n uda 2 hari ini gw tidur pas adzan subuh..

dalam beberapa taun ke depan,
kira2 kondisi badan gw kayak apa ya?

ga pengen komplikasi,
tapi tetep aja ga bisa ngilangin godaan buat begadang..

hhhhhhhhhhhh......

my life according to the used.

(hasil fesbukan pagi2 buta..)

Using only song names from ONE BAND or ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Re post as "my life according to (band name)"


Pick your Artist: The Used.

Are you a female: Hard To Say.

Describe yourself: I'm A Fake.

How do you feel: Yesterday's Feelings.

Describe where you currently live: On The Cross.

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Into My Web.

Your favorite form of transportation: Tunnel.

Your best friend is: With Me Tonight.

You and your best friends are: Burning Down The House.

What's the weather like: Sun Comes Up.

Favorite time of day: Dark Days.

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: The Best Of Me.

What is life to you: Maybe Memories.

Your relationship: Blue And Yellow.

Your fear: Earthquake.

What is the best advice you have to give: Slit Your Own Throat.

How I would like to die: Buried Myself Alive.

My soul's present condition: Alone This Holiday.

My Motto: Men Are All The Same.


(my favorite: "slit your own throat". huahahaha)